2009 will go down in the annals of my lifestory as probably in the top then of hard years - even though no one died tragically, I was not sick (despite my best efforts to make myself so, I am merely rundown and looking forward to improvement in the New year) and so, it should, technically be a pretty medium kind of year, allthings considered. but, I learned a couple of very hard lessons that have been reappearing with increasing intensity over the past decade - chief of which is how easily I can lose sight of the things that really matter (home, work, dogs, spirit). We all have some kind of angry, aching hole in the centre of our hearts that will reach out and grab at whatever it thinks it wants, like a hungry baby grabbing at candy. I suffered major burnout in the spring - I still have to figure out how to do what I do and earn a living at it - but then summer became a bit of a nightmare, and by September I was an emotional wreck. Looking back, I see I shed some deeply cherished illusions, moved away from neurotic, limiting situations and have emerged with a renewed sense of self, purpose and esteem. but it wasn't easy. and the one being I can thank most of all, for sticking with me and always being truthful and direct, is Danny.
Because dogs never lie about love. We can all learn so much from that one simple fact.
Thank you Daniel. You are my everything. I thank the gods for you every day. I love you with all my heart.
